June 12, 2019
Dear Cynical Self..
I won’t ask what you feel by this moment. I know for sure that you are in a battle that has no ending. You think, you’ve gone too far from who you are before. You’re no longer the one whom you expected to be. You’re no longer jolly, happy and passionate. You deserted the things you like the most. You feel nothing but fear. Fear of losing your way back.
But may I remind you. You’re not entitled to be perfect. It’s never been in your job description to be the best person in the world. You cannot please everybody nor help them in times of need. You have your own needs to provide, lacks to fill and wars to fight. You’re not the sun who can shine even you’re tired.
You need to accept that you’re not born to be a hero. You’re born to be a person of purpose. A person who needs to be better and better each day with the help of the Lord. You’re not meant to be alone. You are destined to finish this race together with people of the same passion.
Don’t worry to much. There are a lot of people who didn’t give up on you, including HIM. It’s not too late to pull all your broken pieces back to what it was before. Be brave to carry all the damages and bare the pain of healing. What matters most is the move you’ll take to be better, to feel better.
It won’t come easy. You might forgive yourself faster than those people who knew nothing about you. Let them have those wrong perception about you. It’s your life after all. Start from step one if you need to. Take the time that you need so that you won’t be overwhelmed once again.
Cheer up dear, just like what you always say to your babies. You need a strong encouragement, that’s why I’m here. To endlessly remind you that you are Enough. Know your worth because some values you more than you value yourself. You always have HIM . ok?!
I love you.. even how tiring it is to stay… i still love you..
Fighting!
Your critical friend,
Self.
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